Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Being Really ALIVE

The article below really spoke to me today. Kim and I had been talking about how our circumstances had brought us to a place where we were not really living. 4 years has been a very long time. I mean we are surviving, but not really enjoying the simple things and the true blessings around us. Our friends have been so very good to us, and our families have been even more amazing. Another friend called us last night (we are in North Carolina, for another trip to the doctor), at the end of a very difficult day, to tell us they were praying, and that they felt God leading them to send us a title for the next few months to help cover medical expenses. God never ceases to amaze us. He told us at the beginning that if we would let go and not try to "work it out", He would bring us through in a "most unexpected way". Well, he continues to take care of us month by month, day by day. Some days, I have felt like I couldn't go another step, only to find a friend coming along side, to help hold us up.... We have been givers for many years, and have met needs of others, and it has been very humbling to be in a place of such great need, but I will forever be grateful to all of those who have helped us in such real, tangible ways. Prayer is incredible, but prayer coupled with action is even more amazing. We are so blessed to be surrounded by such incredible friends and family, and yet - some days, it's really hard to live - to just enjoy what we DO have, and enjoy what we CAN enjoy. There isn't much Kim can do right now - she can't walk, stand, drive, even sit up or feed herself sometimes, and the strain on all of us can be tough, but we must learn to live here. We can't put all of life on hold until this time ends. We have to live - each day. I thank God for what He is teaching us here, and long for the day when we truly live regardless of our circumstances... in complete peace and the strength that only comes from Him and the relationships He works through in our lives.

Some well meaning folks have felt the need along the way to impress upon us that our situation is a result of something wrong in our lives. After living through that and hearing God's perspective on it, I will never be able to lay that crap on anyone. I also don't ever want to hand out "pat answers" or "just believe" statements again, either. They're hollow when you are in such a place that you realize you have no control over the situations or bringing them to an end. Only God holds the answers, the ending, and the results. They are all His, and we would be better off just listening to what He tells us about ourselves, rather than trying to figure out how to "fix" others. THANK YOU GOD for the friends who have loved us and not tried to "fix" us. God told us He likes us the way we are, and we are so thankful for friends who do, too...


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Ras Robinson
Jun 20 2006 07:00AM

June 20, 2006. Live it boldly. Awaken to the new day before you. Rise and shine. Let the glory of the Lord radiate from your life today. The bird nests outside my window are empty. The baby birds are becoming adults. They are singing with all their heart and voice that this is the greatest day before them. Here is My word to you: Greet this day with a smile and with a determination to make someone happy today. Get lost in serving others. Show the world around you what Jesus looks like in the flesh. Dare to be bold and very courageous in all you do. Refuse to live your life sparingly. Rather, live it abundantly and overflowing with His fullness all day long. Reckon yourself dead to sin and to yourself and explode through being alive to Christ. Fervently express the indiscernible Jesus living with your body. Live it boldly.

John 10:10 "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly."


kingsjoy said...

Thanks for posting this. Great words of encouragement.

I'm sorry people have accused you of wrongdoing, and have given you quick answers. We can be so insensitive.

You guys are in my prayers. Thanks again.

mukeyjoy said...

You know what's so amazing? I had no idea what you guys were going through. Based on the comments you've left on my blog I'd think you were...not where you are. You, my friend, are living the life. To be able to encourage someone going through something so trivial while going through something so huge yourself...Thank you for the example. Keep living man!

GoteeMan said...

Thanks, David and Melissa, for the kind comments and encouragement, and for your prayers...

You both are a tremendous encouragement to us (me and Kim)...

God bless you both...


GoteeMan said...

And Melissa -

What you are going through is not at all trivial... I understand, and it can be crushing and very difficult.

You and David are precious and wonderful.


Derek said...

the Lord is amazing in how He takes care of His own. I recently finished 6 months of chemo for Hodgkins Lymphoma (cancer). My work continued to pay my salary while I was out. I even accrued vacation time... people from all over the world prayed for us and the Lord even used the cancer as a ministry. He is showing me more and more that He is faithful and that He is in control... How can I pray for you and your family?

GoteeMan said...

Derek -
Thanks for the post. It's amazing how suffering can really change us, isn't it? Specifically, right now, we need continued provision and healing for my wife, Kimberly. She is currently in a wheelchair, and is unable to care for herself at all or our kids. Just in the last few weeks, she has been able to take a few steps for the first time since Christmas last year. She has been disabled in varying degrees for over 4 years now. She has a central line catheter in her chest and she gets IV Antibiotics (high dosage) 3 days a week, which also takes its toll, but is helping overall. She was diagnosed with Lyme Disease plus coinfections about 2 years ago. Insurance quit paying for IV Antibiotics after the first 30 days of treatment, so we have been self pay since then. God has provided every step of the way. Last month was the first month we had to incur any debt through this whole time. It's really been amazing, and we know He did not bring us this far just to leave us at this point with no guidance or help. I've never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging for bread, and our righteousness is squarely in Christ. Thanks again for your post and encouragement. We know one day this will come to a close, but it has been long, and we are very weary.