Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Waiting for My Real Life to Begin... and Resting...




Waiting for My Real Life to Begin, by Colin Hay

Any minute now my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
And I'll stand on the bow
And feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down, down, down on me

And you said,"Be still, my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in
"Don't you understand?
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

When I awoke today suddenly nothing happened
But in my dreams I slew the dragon
And down this beaten path
And up this cobbled lane
I'm walking in my own footsteps once again

And you say,"Just be here now
Forget about the past
Your mask is wearing thin
"Let me throw one more dice
I know that I can win
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

Any minute now my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
And I'll check my machine
There's sure to be that call
It's gonna happen soon, soon, oh so very soon
It's just that times are lean

And you say,"Be still, my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in
"Don't you understand?
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

Hey heyeyeyeyey
Hey yeeeeeee
Hey heyeyeyeyey
Eeh eeh eeh eeh eh x5

On a clear day
I can see, see for a long way
On a clear day
I can see, see a very long way
In many ways, this song has expressed my heart through the difficult times over the past few years. A very dear friend also shared a prayer with me tonight that has expressed where I WANT to be, and sometimes where I am...

The Welcome Prayer, by Father Thomas Keating:

Welcome, welcome, welcome.
I welcome everything that comes to me in this moment
because I know it is for my healing.

I welcome all thoughts, feelings,
emotions, persons,
situations and conclusions.
I let go of my desire for security.

I let go of my desire for approval.
I let go of my desire for control.
I let go of my desire to change any situation,
condition, person or myself.

I open to the love and presence of God
and to the healing action and grace within.

AMEN

My desire is to live in the perfect balance of hope and peace - the hope of the plans and paths Daddy has for us, tempered by the peace of finding contentment in accepting and coming to terms with the circumstances and situations of the current moments... to live within each moment. When we are trapped in the yesterdays (of regret) or the tomorrows (of deferred hope or of worry and dread), we are paralyzed and miss the NOW. It is only in the peace of the current moment where we can actually live, love and move.

Please share insights and reflections from your own heart, if you are so moved.... I believe each of us may benefit from each others' experiences and hearts...

J/

15 comments:

Kel said...

Those were beautifully written words. On my site I have a quote "Life is what happens when your busy making other plans." It helps to remind me of "the now" and to live in and enjoy the moment.

I think it's easy to look to the future and plan for the things I'm going to do when...but if we fail to learn from right now or appreciate what is right in front of us how will we ever see or appreciate what we want when we finally do recieve it? No, I'm not saying I have to like everything that happens in my life or that there won't be a little rain or even a large storm sometimes...I'm just saying that thru these moments there is always something to be grateful for or enjoy or learn from as well.

Thanks for visiting the site, I always enjoy your comments and insight! Have a great day!
~K

Melissa said...

Looks like that prayer was written just for me. It's amazing the more I try to control things the more out of control I feel.

Here's hoping the prayer works for both of us.

Kim from Kansas said...
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Kim from Kansas said...

THE TRUTH: At this moment, I could pray that prayer but boy would it be hard to mean it. Guess I'll be praying for the ability to mean it.


---just saw the typo..oops.

Krystyn said...

I agree...it is soooo important to savor the moment! Don't live in the past or the future, or you'll miss it!!!

Stephanie said...

I'm visiting after reading your comment on one of my posts re:wines. I don't like sweet or too dry...need something in between :)

Since it's my first visit I don't know the struggles you're enduring, but will certainly pray for your strength and peace. The prayer and your words are beautiful. I struggle with living and appreciating the moments of NOW, and know that is a big weakness of mine. I don't want to miss the little moments as there is always something to learn from them, yet find it so easy to be distracted and worrying about tomorrow.

I have this poem on my fridge. It's been there for many years and has traveled through many moves. My mom sent it to me when I was going through some difficult times.

I asked for Strength...and God gave me difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for Wisdom...and God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for Prosperity..and God gave me brain and brawn to work.
I asked for Courage..and God gave me danger to overcome.
I asked for Love..and God gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for Favors..and God gave me opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted..I received everything I needed.

Blessings to you.

GoteeMan said...

Thanks to you all - you are a wealth of wisdom and blessings...

J/

Vidal's Nest said...

Reminds me of my fav song by Rascall Flatts. When I first heard it, it was a ah ha moment. Loved the line "Life has been patiently waiting for me"
Reminded me it's time to move on and accept where I was at for the moment. Cherish life now, exactly as it was the good, bad, and ugly. Every obstacle in my life was difficult but a huge growing moment in my life.
Women are like tea bags you never know the strength of them until they get into hot water~ Eleanor Roosevelt
Men too~ Trials bring blessings to. We need to accept and embrace

Queen of the Mayhem said...

This is definitely something I struggle with....worrying is so very ingrained in my nature that I do sometimes lose sight of relishing the now!

I try to remember to ask for the strength to accept God's will and not the power to change it. (TRY being the operative word here!)

Anissa@Hope4Peyton said...

On our site, we have always used a verse that is close to our hearts. Romans 12:12. The verse literally fell into our laps as the Bible we requested in the hospital where my daughter was diagnosed was completely dilapidated and that page fell out of the binding.

It says "Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer". Those words have been comfort, strength and inspiration to me throughout.

I don't have big plans for the future, but I do have hopes. I also know that God's plans are always bigger than my pain so I work...and often fail...to reach a complete openness to what his purpose is.

GoteeMan said...

You all are completely amazing... kindred spirits as we walk along, learning to be who we were made to be...

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and hearts. You are precious, every one...

J/

Crazymamaof6 said...

thanks for stopping by! and commenting!

sheesh, how did you know. dread is one of those things i seem to dwell on. i keep missing the now. sure i've had my struggles and grown hugely, but man it was NOT FUN! missed so much looking to the next thing i missed the babyhood of some of my kids, wanting them to grow up, the struggles are just different, not gone.
perspective is Huge. and once you've faced the really big stuff the little stuff, kind of falls away. you are so right.
so who do you lurk on that you hop over from? spill it! your insights and post was well timed thank you.
~Julie

Big Pissy said...

I wanted to come by to thank you for your supportive comments.

Now I have to thank you for posting that prayer. :)

Just telling it like it is said...

Moved I am...
Your right I had a hard day today mostly because I have to work with people in a field of women that are unfair and judgemental..It was nice to read your prayer and to listen to the lyrics of your song...I too have had times that I began for my real life to live to only regret later that I wasted the time not living in the moment...Now I try and listen to Gods calling understand that my purpose and try and serve the best that I can...I am going through changes but learning along the way...thanks for stopping by my blog..now that I talk a lot of craziness but all in good fun!!! darn girl

Brett Elizabeth Spore said...

My comment is for all the people who left comments...

Thank you.